I have less than three weeks until I leave for Boston. I'm slightly nervous, but I mostly just want to get there and get started with my life. I long to be able to participate in services on Friday nights and Saturday mornings. I feel so alone here. I also long to be able to read Hebrew and recite prayers and blessings and do all of the other things that born-Jews do with ease.
I love Judaism. I love the way that it promotes the asking of questions and the learning of different perspectives. I have always held learning in the highest regard and I was almost surprised to find a faith that does the same. I don't understand other people who learn only from their televisions. How can they not read books, learn about things elsewhere in the world? Don't they want to know about everything just for the sake of knowing it? Don't they want to question?
I also love the way Hebrew looks and sounds. It sounds so real. I don't know how to explain it. It's like it's the language of truth.
Most of all I love the Jewish interperetation of the bible. When I read or listen to a Rabbi speak about lessons of the Torah it becomes clear to me. The Books of Moses have been opened up to me and a new light has been shone upon them.
Today we found out that Al Gore will be inviting Joseph Lieberman to be his running mate. I felt like this was a personal victory. Strange, isn't it? I feel like I am a Jew already. Perhaps I always have been and it is finally now being revealed to me. It's possible that I am merely becoming what I was meant to be. |
