Well, today is Saturday. Last night I welcomed the Sabbath by lighting a candle and saying the blessing, and asking G-d's forgiveness for my mistakes in the ceremony. I come from a homogenous little town in Pennsylvania, so there aren't any Jews that I can talk to or learn anything from. I just have to learn from books and the internet and then go from there myself. I do realize that conversion will not be easy. There are many steps to take and there will be those who will oppose me. But, I believe it is worth it.
At the end of August I will finally be going off to college at Boston University. There I will finally be in an environment conducive to learning these things. When I get there I'm going to plan a meeting with the Rabbi. I'm excited about my schedule for fall. I'm taking First Semester Hebrew.
Some of you may be wondering why I want to convert. It started about four years ago. I was raised in a nonreligious household and around that time I felt the need for some form of worship. I began reading all of the books in th local library about all different religions. It was about two years ago that I began focusing in on Judaism. I found that I liked this faith that is rich with tradition and culture. I also found that Judaism fit my personal beliefs. As I read more and more about this religion I really felt as if I were destined to become Jewish, as if that is where I belong.
As for going to college, I'm excited and nervous. I really like my class selection and the campus and everything. The only thing I worry about is making friends. At orientation I only met a few people I could talk to. Oh well, I'm sure I'll make friends eventually. It just takes me a while.
Something else that is just weird is becoming an adult. Me, all grown up? I don't think of myself as being a real grown up person. |
